Thursday, April 18, 2013

Cambria's Redemption

As English majors and literature enthusiasts, we all like to "over-think" things; we thrive on the existence of multiple, varied "deeper meanings" and, in some cases, invent meanings to add supposed value to trivial works. 

This technique can lead to a full comprehension and and deep appreciation for most written pieces.   Sometimes analyzing something to death, though, can squelch the joy and pleasure out of it.

I believe that, while the deep analytic understanding of the underlying "information" in Shakespeare and his peers' works is meaningful to some, and very much important to the overall value of such writings, it is not ALL there is to them. At some point, beauty has to be appreciated for its plain, simple, face-value. Artistic excellence can, in fact, reside in the lyrical rhythms as much as in the "deeper meanings". 

William Shakespeare created art. Fredrick Turner creates art. I decided, for my final project, to attempt to do the same. So here goes nothin...

 Cambria’s Redemption

Waiting
He waited, albeit nervously, with quiet, gentle resolute
The lady ‘cross the room in shrouded silk and velvet garb
A crowd expanses ‘tween them, room hushed all eyes awaiting
For the silver lady’s speaking, though cold steel lips remain
The velum veil that masks her face caresses softly midnight curls
A mystery a dream that though awake she’s surely living
Eccentric many call her yet the seats are nightly fully filled
Familiar faces some, and others strangers, wanderers weary
Weeks and miles traveled every coin to each soul’s name
Is left with dark-skinned doormen ‘fore the stage can ev’n be seen 
No crystal ball but incense fragrant drifts in windowless draft
A musty slightly chilling feel creeps through stale and fetid air
  
The man’s is one of many tales, wrought with pain and memory
A tear descends to meet the spot where fades his fastened tie
Though blink is nonexistent lest his dark rimmed eyes to miss
The year he saved to catch this moment ‘feard the lone last chance
Seated near the back his hand is raised when lady long-last speaks
Upraised it stays though called he’s not, exchanging left and later right
The hour grows late and heavy a heart grips the weary silent man
Age’d far beyond his years, time lies only beneath his eyes
In the lines and in the sadness clear in lonely hollowed cheeks

They file out, the rich, the boring, haughty in their bleak existence
There for entertainment many, few for miracles  
Their suits and muffs and monocles would set the tone for opera
Gentlemen with ivory pipes and ladies bejeweled clutches
Stitched in silver; a play it is, a stage for false performance,
A game believed by lady and few a whispering tormented soul
Yet the man is lost and loosing and has reached his last resort
The others file out now and lady to shadow vanishes
White knuckles and a furrowed brow he lingers for the last to leave
Then makes his way to stageside where he hums soft an eerie tune    
   
Waking
The melancholy minor tones of mystery and dreaming
A drop or two now roam his cheek, she hears him call behind the stage
Forth she comes with uns’prised eyes all-knowing now in simple garb
A hand extends in feeling, sympathy supposed yet in the dark
Appears her wise beyond her years he marvels at her tresses silken
Colorless her lips, her hands, no veil now hides her piercing eyes  
Beside him on the oaken floor she crosses legs and runs her thumb
Beladen with three silver bands across his lip where rests the tear
Her eyes reflect the pain and longing churning in his consciousness
Silence with his unforgiving chokehold now is welcome here
The tension taut betwixt the man and lady penetrates the still

“I lost her” now he hoarsely murmurs, albeit expressionlessly
“I know” replies her silken tone, a seductive drug to hungry ears
“Tell me about her” a low command; she nears him now though motionlessly
Strong and heady opium engulfs the man now all-alert
No further sound he utters and alas, no discourse now is needed
Though a decade and a lifetime separates two minds now melded
When their lips and bodies meet the fierceness cultivates releases
He drinks her in as piquant wine, erotica eludes them though
At least the human mortal form which based in carnal pleasure lacks

Walking             
Smoke swirls in the pipe she held, visible through opaque glass
And passed to him with swimming head he once again does draw
Then clutch his wrists as eyes hers close, moving still beneath their lids
A droning tune she chants in tone and verse unknown to those still living
And through the haze that clouds the mind of roused and anxious gentleman
He hears a voice as in a dream, yet eyes now op’ning catch a glimpse
Hazy first but clearer coming walks a girl’s translucent figure
“You are not my bride” says he to waist-length silver curls and weathered skin
“You are not the love I too soon lost, the aim my presence here”
She cannot speak, cannot explain, though in his throat the words now catch
A sharp inhale when in her eyes familiarity faintly flickers

“But how…” he stammers, lost for words, “you…my wife…yet she is gone”
And gone so soon yet age’d now so far beyond her timely years
His mother does appear as this, a matriarch, long-standing queen
A robber once of many a’ heart yet now an earthly solemn seer
Still, the girl he called his wife was younger when just a year ago
The thief called death of plagued disease did filch her and his unborn child
Beyond a doubt though now before him stands the girl he wed in spring
With weathered skin and silver hair in smiling eyes the gleam of life still lingers
And as he stares her beauty grows, surpassing ev’n that flawless day
When eternity was promised, forever never thought t’would be cut short

His lover’s age remains unchanged yet changed are his perceptions
Established in this woman now, beauty in a way uniquely he can understand
But as he reaches toward her, the sanctified image away does start to fade
Precipitously frantic he becomes and reaches in desperation
What’s left lingering as she walks away, a shadow now, then gone her frame
“Don’t leave” he calls, first loud then whispered, to knees he sinks disheartened 
“I love you” but the earnest words now fall in empty mortal air 

A daydream was it, fantasy of what he most desires, a single instant glimpse of paradise
Though far from how the meet had gone when in his waking hour or dream
This shooting blast of heav’nly light does overtake his musing mind
Yet as said light burns out so soon so does his smile as angel leaves
Now left alone with cryptic seer a hollowness engulfs his heart, his mind
She doesn’t move, just watches him, pure empathy not jealous
Coming down from heady high together both are motionless
He rises then to take his leave though back she knows he soon will come
And at the door he turns to better hear the lass from where she sits
“You’re best to come in timely form” the deep and cagey voice proclaims     
“For aged as does appear your bride quite limited tis time that’s left”
A single solemn nod and turning gone is he from furtive hall
No charming disillusion lives, no needed explanation for heart’s fate

He walks along the riverside, hands in pockets, eyes cast down
Then stopping now to stare unseeing at floating murk, the foul debris
A purgatory or the like she now was in as he had thus presumed
Inherently he felt her—he had since fated day—as one still undeparted in entirety          
Heart his clenches though as dawns the realizing she soon will go
Beyond the present in-between to places distantly unknown
For in one year by mortal scale a half-century has aged the girl
Yet girl no longer fits her though for age’d don’t approve such terms

He must go back! soon! tomorrow! before his brides expire completes
Lucidity returns, though briefly, to wake him from his lingering trance     
First time in months he’d had a purpose, leaving drifting for direction
But to see the seer again would mean the loss of fortune great
A privileged affluence that quickly lessens day by dreary, passing day
Pressed from his mind are menial matters though for on this glorious eve
Cambria, his love, his life, had shown her flawless face again.    


©Annika Stampfel 2013

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